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This is a composition of my journal entries for my senior project.
The Start of senior year
Well, I would say that the last 3 years of high school haven’t brought me to this moment, I brought myself to this moment. There were many times where the last 3 years of high school just simply made me want to give up on life in general, that may sound somewhat pitiful, but that’s besides the point. A lot of drama, and allot of problems occurred that I couldn’t control. I broke my arm, I fractured one of my knuckles as well. Both times I was unable to write and it was quite difficult to type and use a computer properly, I fell behind. There was a lot of pain, broken bones, and a bad relationship. It distracted me from my work and I fell far behind. At some moments I truly hated my life, over time, I have felt better, certain parts of me are stronger, I feel better, I feel stronger. I am better, I won’t make the same decisions that I did before, I won’t care about the same things I did before. I will focus and I will succeed. So far my senior year has been interesting, I’ve acquired this new device, a Chromebook, which will be somewhat helpful for completing work in my class’s. Surprisingly, all of my classes seem to be in the realm of possibility for me to get through. I’m at the very beginning of my senior year, it’s the fourth day of school and I’m trying to focus on school work and getting every single thing done that I need to get done. Work doesn’t seem like work anymore, it seems like something I have to do consistently. Currently I feel that I am mostly on pace, but I would like to say that with 100% certainty. I have to get a thinking map done and finish a powerpoint for U.S History. I also have to finish a 2 page essay for Government. I am currently not working on anything for my senior project, which is something I will change very soon. I am looking forward to determining whether or not I will be able to finish what I need to finish to graduate, initially I was under the assumption that I would not be able to finish my senior year in a single school year. Looking at my class’s this year, I’ve been able to feel a lot more optimistic about my chances of completing my senior year on time to walk at graduation. My goals for this year include graduating high school on time, graduating high school on time and graduating high school on time. I’m going to work very hard this year to make that a reality. Classes that will be difficult for me to complete on time may be Chemistry and Geometry. I may need some extra help with Geometry, I am unsure of this yet, however. I am looking forward to the feeling of turning in more work on time instead of late or not turning it in at all. My mind is on the horizon, and I am optimistic about my chances.
senior year rolls onward
A lot has changed since my last journal entry. I’m doing alright in most of my classes, my goal is still to graduate by the end of the year. For English, I’m doing fairly well. In French I’ve fallen behind somewhat. In advanced art, I’m actually doing quite fine. I’m currently working on a perspective art piece which is really cool to work on. In terms of Geometry, I’m not doing great but I’m still on pace to graduate. For Government I’m mostly on pace, but I still need to do an essay. I’m doing great in my intro to foodservice class, it’s quickly become one of my favorite classes. Before the end of the semester I need to be done with Government, I need to be done with U.S History and Advanced Art. I also need to be on pace with French 2. I feel that I should also keep in mind that I’ve gotta complete my Job Shadow and my community hours. I don’t really know who I’m going to job shadow yet, and I don’t know where I’m going to get my community hours. I’m enjoying my senior year so far, I should probably focus more on getting everything I need to get done, done, though.
I’m looking into community colleges that I might potentially attend once I’m done with High School. I’m seriously considering Porterville College. I haven’t yet looked into any potential employment options, but I plan to do so once I get closer to actually graduating. I’m purposefully not pursuing employment currently because I want to put more of my time towards school and my senior year. In general, I feel supported in my preparation for post graduation because my father now has a job and my grandparents are also supporting me in my search for education after high school. I’m confident while moving forward in my high school career, and after school today I’m going to be attending night school. The primary reason as to why I’m attending night school is due to the fact that I’m actually in a credit deficit due to taking longer to finish certain classes. I’m actually still retaking some classes, U.S History and Advanced Art namely. The Night school I’m attending is in the C- wing, it’s also every day after school except for Fridays. It’s all online and we don’t actually work on any classes that we’re taking in regular school. Night School only lasts an hour, as well and it’s all online. There’s a website we go to and all of the class’s we take are on it. It’s a really good way to make up for lost credits. So far I’m enjoying my senior year and I feel confident in what I’m doing. Tons of things have changed since the last time I wrote a journal entry, basically my entire outlook on life has basically reverted back to how it used to be, but I’m glad that I could still keep it together.
I’m looking into community colleges that I might potentially attend once I’m done with High School. I’m seriously considering Porterville College. I haven’t yet looked into any potential employment options, but I plan to do so once I get closer to actually graduating. I’m purposefully not pursuing employment currently because I want to put more of my time towards school and my senior year. In general, I feel supported in my preparation for post graduation because my father now has a job and my grandparents are also supporting me in my search for education after high school. I’m confident while moving forward in my high school career, and after school today I’m going to be attending night school. The primary reason as to why I’m attending night school is due to the fact that I’m actually in a credit deficit due to taking longer to finish certain classes. I’m actually still retaking some classes, U.S History and Advanced Art namely. The Night school I’m attending is in the C- wing, it’s also every day after school except for Fridays. It’s all online and we don’t actually work on any classes that we’re taking in regular school. Night School only lasts an hour, as well and it’s all online. There’s a website we go to and all of the class’s we take are on it. It’s a really good way to make up for lost credits. So far I’m enjoying my senior year and I feel confident in what I’m doing. Tons of things have changed since the last time I wrote a journal entry, basically my entire outlook on life has basically reverted back to how it used to be, but I’m glad that I could still keep it together.
the end of first semester
My Winter break was pretty great, despite certain circumstances. I’m glad that I could take some time to relax, but I’ve accepted and plan to get everything I need to get done, done. I did quite a bit over Winter break and had lots of fun. I wasn’t very productive, but I somewhat accept that I didn’t plan seriously to be productive. I had an idea of what I might do, but I didn’t actually have the discipline to actually do it. In my first semester, I was very confident in what I could accomplish and get done in terms of school work. Over time, however, I lost interest and motivation to actually do the work that I needed to do. I was doing homework for the wrong reasons, therefore I lost motivation. I enjoyed playing video games, and other hobbies that I had at the time but I’m beginning to accept that I will become an adult and to be successful as an adult I need to focus on achieving goals as an adult. I’m more future minded and I’ve given up certain things. I need to do my Job Shadow, I also need to finish my community hours. I need to catch up on some of my credits as well. I have yet to apply for any colleges. I plan to apply for PC. When I do begin attending Porterville College, I will be going for my CA in information systems. I may also do wrestling while there aswell. I haven’t made any progress in job hunting, but I plan to focus more on that a bit later after taking care of the work I still have to do for my class’s. Senior year is a really transformative year for some students, and it has been for me. I decided earlier in the year that I would stay on pace and keep things under control and done, I failed to do that. I realized what had been keeping me from doing that, and I removed it. I put my consoles and games into storage, I also uninstalled anything that wasn’t related to self improvement and school work on my computer. I’ve begun to realize that kinds of things I need to care about, I know exactly what I want to care about, and what I feel like doing. But now and days I’m making the choice to focus on what’s really important for my future. I am a student, and I need to pass my classes, preferably on time. If the work isn’t done now, then when will it be done? Before, at the beginning of this semester, I didn’t realize the discipline that it required to actually follow through. I might still not understand completely, and maybe I don’t entirely have that discipline yet but I want to get a little closer. Therefore I decided to put away all my games, get them out of my sight. Get distractions out of my sight, and focus on what I need to become an independent and financially stable adult.
my final journal
I’m not at all worried about graduation. I may or may not be able to graduate. If I choose to work hard, I may be able to finish on time. If I try hard and I do not finish on time, and there is still more for me to do, then it won’t be the end of the world for me. Whether I graduate on time or not isn’t a huge deal to me, as long as I manage to graduate. That’s what’s important, whether it be this year or the next, I’ll work towards that goal. So far, I’ve been looking into PC. Porterville College, and I’ve got a good idea in what I’ll major in. Information Systems seems right up my alley and I feel comfortable knowing that I have it planned out. I’d like to get a CA and an AA if possible, this will take a very long time for me to accomplish and I’m perfectly fine with that. I’ve not yet gotten a license or a car but after I turn 18, I’ll be working towards that goal viciously. Next up is possible employment options for me, and I’ve thought about that. I’m planning to start the process of looking for work, it’s all in anticipation for the big day that’s coming up, my 18th birthday. I’m planning to work and go to college and at some point move out of my grandparents house and live by myself and then hopefully with my girlfriend. I still need to finish my community hours, which I’m proud to say that I’m mostly done with. I still need to do my job shadow. I need to do the resume page on my website, I need to finish my powerpoint. The due dates for some of these things are coming up, and that’s pretty scary. I am most looking forward to being more financially independent and having a little bit more money in my pocket. I’m looking forward to being able to have more control over my time and over my resources in general. I’m grateful for the friends I’ve made while going to this school. Over all it’s what I am most grateful for, all the people I’ve met. Everyone who’s been my friend, High School is where I’ve made the most friends so far. I’m happy for that. Lately, I’ve been pretty happy and everything seems to go pretty fast. It’s crazy how fast time ends up moving when you reach that last year of high school. As I’m typing this, it’s raining and I’d really like some coffee. It’s pretty surreal about how this is my last journal. Overall my year so far has been pretty great.